*blank* preaching to self

haha so empty the tag board...

ok back to the main...

even as i attended the cremation process of ruxiang,
a 15 year old girl, passed away on 9th June 2006, at approximately 7,30 in the morning..
a young lady who was always similing and looking out for others despite her condition..
truely an amazing feat... truely God's child at heart.
emotions and thoughts flooded my mind as i even as the service was going on...
i approached it with a heavy heart... she had indeed passed on to a better place,
a place where she would not experience pain nor suffering any longer...

when the time came for us to offer her a flower in due respect, my legs froze..
it felt as if huge boulders were tied to my feet...
the air around was so heavy,
the air of mourning and sadness, depression, upset...
it had filled the air so greatly that anyone in the room could have felt it...
it was painful to think about how she had left us despite me not being close to this sister.
but for better she had departed =)

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i visited a few blogs and found some encouragements directed at me!
thkx ivy, and thkx gid!
i was shaken and reminded by these words from gideon's blog
"obediance is better than sacrifise"
a heartbeat like quake shook my mind.
i realised that i had focused so much on giving sacrifises to Him... and neglected the fundamental principle of follow Him... Obediance.

following him it in itself is a sacrifise
we no longer need to please him with mere offerings
but by obediance, we are choosing his ways over ours
that in itself is a tough choice in the face of even adversity!
would you choose obediance even in death? or selfishly keep your life?....
its more than just words... its a commitment....

do you remeber what you see in the mirror?...